Currently Reading Redeeming Love By Francine Rivers see related

A quote from a close friend - "I'd rather do yard work than have sex..."

I can finally announce that I have a permanent job and in a few short months I will be a homeowner!

Thursday I will officially be on staff at LifeWay as a full time retail trainer.  I will have vacation time, benefits, business cards, they even threw in another raise.  After over a year of waiting my patience finally paid off.  I am gearing up for our busy season and I am excited and at the same time tired just thinking about it.  I will take almost ten trips between now and Christmas (and hopefully move into a new house somewhere in there) .  I can't wait.  I will get to see some pretty interesting places, like Meridian, MS and Decatur, AL.  Woo hoo!

In April, my boss gave me a new nickname, baby trainer.  Partially because I am the youngest and a rookie, but partially because I sometimes make "mistakes".  Not bad mistakes, I just do things I probably shouldn't have done, like wearing the wrong shoes or lugging 40+ boxes to NC when I could have shipped them.  The great thing is is that my boss is always encouraging about it.  He always tells me it is a learning and training opportunity and that I wouldn't have known I was making a mistake because no one told me not to do it.  I think it's nice to work in an environment like that, but most of all it makes me want to learn.  For those who know me, they know I have never been one to really like school.  I mean I got three D-'s one semester, but something lately has really given me this hunger to learn and to be better at my job.  It has been kind of fun actually, but I will admit it kind of creeps me out still.  I'm learning alot and I really like knowing how to do my job better and different.

I have been working out since about February.  I can tell a little bit of difference, but not as much as I would like I'm afraid.  I try to do it as many days as I can and right when I come home from work, I'm a little more motivated then.  Regardless of the health aspects of it I have really noticed a difference in my stress level and more so my spiritual life.  I decided to give up non Christian music for lent and it has kind of stuck with me, especially when I am working out.  It is like for those thirty minutes or more I can just be in my own little world, de-stress, and spend some time with God and sort through things in my life.  It is a nice way to wined down after a long day.

I realized something this week.  I finally think I am ok with the idea of not getting married.  Before I really didn't consider that an option, I was going to get married, I had to get married.  Everybody's doing it, right?  But something happened this week, I don't know what it was exactly, but I just have this peace, I'm ok with it, I'm ok with being single...even if it is forever.  I don't have to get married, millions of women are staying single and are perfectly happy.  As long as I am in the center of Gods will, I'm plugged into ministry, I have a good life and am happy, why should it matter?  I'm not saying that I wouldn't be happy if it happened, but I'm ok if it doesn't and that is huge for me. 

Currently Listening S.O.S.: Save Our Soul ( Amazon Exclusive with Bonus Track ) By Marc Broussard A Song for You see related

I tried a new church yesterday.  It was actually pretty great and it is Nazarene.  It could be a good possibility.

They rushed my grandmother to the emergency room yesterday, it was pretty scary, she was unresponsive.  When I called to talk to my aunt this morning, guess who answered...Meme.  She was alert and in good spirits.  She just couldn't believe she didn't have one of her books with her.  She is so funny.  Hopefully they are going to run some more tests and figure out what is wrong.

I have really wanted to take up a new "hobby."  I had one in mind, but hadn't told anyone about it.  It may seem silly, but it is disc golf.  Something about it just seems fun and intrigues me.  The funnier thing is that I had someone ask me the other day if I played.  They are going to teach me to play.  I'm very excited.  I also want to go cave spulunking.  I know..random.  I just want to.  I just need someone to do it with....I need less prissy friends.

I really can't wait for fall and winter.  I can't wait to go camping!  I love it!  I love that time of the year and this year it is full of lots of fun surprises!  Hopefully even some I don't know about!

Currently Listening The Altar and the Door By Casting Crowns see related

I had a really good talk with my sister tonite.  While we were talking she reminded me of something.  She said, "Do you remember when you and me and David all used to sleep in the same room?"  I laughed and said yes.  She said, "We used to do that to feel safe and what's funny is that even though all three of us were in the room, we still had to sleep with the closet light on."  (Oh did that make my dad mad wasting all that electricity!)  I hadn't thought of that memory in so long.  Joy and I used to sleep in her canopy bed and David got the shaft and had to sleep on the floor.  I can still see bits and pieces of those nites in my head.  Some of the things we do as children seem so silly as adults.

Oh how far we've come.  Especially my sister and I.  I can remember times when we were growing up screaming at each other over clothes, but now I can't even remember the last time we had a fight.  She is more than a sister, she truly is my best friend in the whole world.  She is the one person I know I can always call, I can always tell her anything.  She is understanding, a great listener, gives amazing advice, but most of all I know that she loves me unconditionally.  I feel safe with her.  I don't really know of any other people in my life that I can say love me like that.

I hate being so far away.  I have wanted my sister to move to Nashville for sometime now.  Selfishly, I want her here to hang out with me, keep me company, to have someone to come home to, to do stuff with, but I know that is selfish of me and on some level I feel immature.  Deep down though, I just want her to be happy.  I want her to do what she wants for once, to put Joy first.  I want her to be happy and for her to know she is in the center of God's will.  I don't want her to feel obligated to move here just because of me or so that I can be close to my dog.  (Even though secretly I do.)

I think you know you truly love someone when it doesn't matter what they do, just as long as it is the best thing for them and it makes them happy, even if it rips your heart out.... 

Currently Reading Passion and Purity,: Learning to Bring Your Love Life Under Christs Control By Elisabeth Elliot see related

"Never miss an opportunity to keep your mouth shut..."

Be still.  Wait quietly.

Somedays I wanna run and sometimes I come undone
But I still belong to you thats how I know that
When I feel like caving in
My heart my soul is wearing thin
I just want to give up
Nothing seems at all to add up
Can you hear me Lord?
My face is down upon the floor
It's then you whisper in my ear
Be still and know I'm here

Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God"

"You're not sick, your single...just sit back and enjoy the ride."

I think that pretty much sums it up.